Laika...

The first few words I uttered after putting Sputnik Sweetheart down were:

"What the...?"

Imagine it. Me, saying those two words, hanging in the air, with my eyebrows furrowed, soft and almost whisper-like exclamation. I was surprised. No. Not surprised, I was more shocked than surprised for what happened was something that I haven't experience in a while. Thinking. I was in awe for something that I think, for now, is more than what my brain could handle.

Murakami.

Darn, my head might have been hibernating for eons (aside from time to time stimulation brought by Ady's brainstorming sessions) that it took a fatal blow upon opening Mura-kun's book.

Shimatta.

It left this gnawing feeling inside me that lingers even now that I'm hammering away on my keyboard.

See? Even my writing style is somehow nostalgic..

Shhh.. I'm reading it one more time.. :)

Read! Read!

I'm eating Apples again! ^___^

I miss the smell of book pages. How long has it been since the last time I buried my nose in the aroma of ink and paper? Weeks? Months? Years? I can' recall, it's so sad. I know I don't have anybody else to blame but myself since I over indulged with shoujo mangas and anime in my spare time instead of finishing Age of Innocence (hontou ni gomen, Kaoru! I'm still not done with it.. T___T) I got so used of reading mangas online that when I open a book, my eyes automatically fly to the right side of the page. In short, the monitor replaced the ink and paper.

But it looks like I would start smelling pages again because somebody's artwork caught my attention.

Neil Gaiman.

Rai, a new friend from the new office (^___^/"/ hello Murasaki-chan!), introduced him to me.

Isn't he the guy who wrote Stardust? Yep, that's him.

(I remember Wywy-sama laughing at the title of the movie adaptation because it was so cheesy while I, on the other hand, was pleased because Stardust is one of my pet name for Arvin. Though it's a secret why! :p)


Anyway, Rai told me about his novel which involved a Fox, a monk and Morpheus (from The Sandman). I immediately got curioused because it was based on a Japanese folklore and it was drawn by Yoshitaka Amano (Final Fantasy) and when she showed me this:



It literally took my breath away.

... and after reading it.

I fell in love with the artwork and with the story. Arigatou, Murasaki-chan for lending me the book and introducing Gaiman! ^_________^

... and thus, it triggered my decision to collect graphic novels. I know, it's impossible at this point but hey, we'll never know! xD



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Also, I finally bought one of Murakami's books. This one:



It cost me a LOT. I sacrificed the new shirt and jeans that I've been planning of buying for months now in exchange for this book. It's worth it, I can still manage with my current clothes but my brain couldn't take its hunger anymore. I have to feed it. Haha.. xD

Another friend from the Office, Ron (haller, Ron-kun! ^___^/"/) , and I will be exchanging books next time because he has Norwegian Wood. Yey! Finally!

What can I do, I'm becoming the bookworm that I was again.. So happy.. ^___^

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I'm not very happy with DeviantArt though. They keep on deleting my wallpapers, saying that I commited a copyright infringement. WTH?! I try to put credits on my work as much as possible. *sigh*

... and worst, they took my most "Favorite" -d work, Itazura na Kiss.. T__T

Hate them! Grrrrrr.. To think I've encouraged so many people to sign up in deviantart.. huhu.. T__T

[chuu~

I look stupid, I can't stop smiling. ^_____^

No matter how many times, how many versions, how many episodes, whether it's on print or in tube, I still get this stupid smile on my face every time I watch Itazura na Kiss (It Started With A Kiss) and it still has the same effect on me: Lovebug. Haha.. :D

As I've said on one of my posts on DeviantArt, Irie-kun (or Zhi Shu in ISWAK) is somehow my ideal guy. Come to think of it, he almost have the same attitude as Chiaki-senpai.. (sorta cold, teehee.. xD) Sheesh. And then I like Kyouya Ootori from Ouran.. Jeez, am I a masochist subconciously? >__<



SPOILERS!!

Muahahahaha! Omedeto Kotoko-chan!





It's been a long journey!




I kinda like the manga more though and ISWAK.. :D Joe Cheng did a good job portraying Shi Zhu (Irie-kun), although he's a bit, uhmm, soft (?) at times.. xD

Kyaaaa, more, more, more! ^___^

If you're curious why I love this series, you can watch it here:
http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Itazura_na_Kiss_-_Anime

Enjoy! ^___^v

たそがれ

I wonder if the person who crossed my mind today also thought about me.
Even just for a minute,
a second,
a millisecond,
a nanosecond.

Did you miss my smile,
laughter,
smell,
eyes,
stories,
conversations,
as I miss you, in all your entirety, on that split second you entered my thoughts?
I wonder..

(But then again, you'll just tell me I have too much time to laze around that's why I can still think of these things)

No. You don't understand.

Memories, it leaves a lingering bittersweetness for the soul to feed upon.

Updates lang.. ^o^

I'm borrowing your line, Nathan.. Updates lang.. :)

There hasn't been enough time to write lately. I'm in the 10pm to 6am shift, so it's either I stay up until 12nn out of the house or get home and be asleep by 8am. I miss my friends, I miss my Cabal Online Wizard (Akong, we're yet to play together! Wait for me! \"\ ^___^/"/), I miss going to Divi, I miss... A lot!

Hay, I haven't been producing wallpapers either. Just this one:




I made that after taking some time to do a marathon of Parfait Tic (read chapters 1-103, all in one sitting!). I should be glad because it's my first decent CG in PS but instead, I'm kind of down. I feel like my creativity (if there has been any to begin with xD) is slowly seeping out of me. No, I don't blame the job, I think I matured (just a bit!), and I finally understood some things.
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I want to finish my romance novel but after giving it another run through, I trashed the idea. One word came to mind:

Plagiarism.

I'm sorry Tada Kaoru, I got carried away by Irie-kun.. :) I'll make my own hero next time..

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I think I'm getting along pretty well with my new officemates. Nobody calls me Essie-hime anymore (I miss Wywy-sama, Patty-chan, Ria-chan, Mari-chan and Joanne-chan! Not you, Anselmo, daikirai!! Hmpf! :p) but I'll be forever using that nickname, arigatou.. ^__^

My new officemates make fun of my name Ester. It's because they've known me as Essie since Day 1 and when it was my chance to report, my name was flased on the projector. Sheeeesh. :p

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I'm pretty sad and hopeful both at the same time.

Sad because:
1. Nobody likes anime in my team that much
2. I don't have anybody who I can learn Japanese with

Hopeful because:
1. I can see A LOT of people onemanga.com at the lobby!

Sad because:
3. But I think they are just a bunch of Narutards or Bleachmaniacs.. Haha, don't get me wrong, I meant that in a good way. I, eherm, like Naruto and Bleach too but I just can't stand people who says "I love anime" and then when I ask them what they've seen they would tell me all the animes that were shown in either GMA or ABS-CBN only. Well, I kinda want to have an anime conversation away from those two animes because I dropped Naruto and Bleach as well as One Piece from my must watch list because of the sole reason that those series were too long. (oh, and maybe because they were too commercialized.. @__@)

Hopeful because:
2. I did make a bunch of new friends.. :) hontoni shiawase da! ^__^

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On Ouran:

'Atta boy, Hikaru-kun! You did it!

Next:
Go go go Tamaki!

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T___T

Still no Nodachi.. *sigh* and just about when Chiaki is giving his carrot to Nodame..

Gyabooooo!

(Haha, that didn't come out right. It was waaaaay too ambiguous. Oh well, Nodame fans would know what I'm talking about.. :D)

(.. and does that mean Chiaki only has a ... carrot?! Buahahahahahaha.. xD sorry, it's already 5 in the morning, I'm no longer thinking right.. :p)

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and also, I got this from Nathan. I was curious so I took the "test:

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

hmmn, the Empress huh? So I'm no longer a hime? :p

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Speaking of being a hime, I had a weird dream last night. It's giving me goosebumps just by remembering..

I was standing in the middle of a garden (think period gardens e.g. Ever After, The Man With The Iron Mask), some people were busy preparing for something. I get the feeling that it was for a wedding..

Uh-oh, lemme turn the lights on first, I'm getting scared.. @_____@

Then suddenly a man in an equestrian costume, the Prince, approached me. He seems to be looking for some sort of treasure. He asked me if I know where the lake is and I said I know where it was. He wanted me to take him there and I said "We can only get there by horse" (Alam nyo 'yung paraan ng mga Kastila noong araw ng pananakop ng lupain? 'Yung tipong "hanggang matatanaw ng mata mo", ganoon kalaki daw 'yung tatahakin namin..) So he whistled then two horses came, one brown then one white. I remember him riding the white one but when I'm about to ride the brown one, it was white!.. So there, we rode until we reached the border of his land which turned out to be the sea (think Baywalk, with all the trees and bench). At that point, I got scared because I realized that the lake he was looking for was actually the sea! Then he disappeared and I got really sad because I was sort of in love with him (I was in love to a Prince in tights? Ek! :p)..

Then.. It was cut-off, then suddenly I was with Arvin, Besh and Enil somewhere in Imbiernes (dito sa may Pandacan) and I was asking them to join me in my search for the treasure because my self then knew I was a Princess and I need to search for that treasure. I had one clue, the number 25.. So we moved forward but then suddenly We were in a tunnel with intersections and then I was in a procession. No creepy long black robes or whatsoever, just ordinary humans but when I looked around I got separated from them and I can't find neither Arvin, Besh or Enil and when I looked around, I can see graves! No particular name on it, just graves, just like the one my Lolo have.

Then I woke up.

Really weird.

I told Arvin about the dream and he was worried so he told me not to sleep again, yet. (He actually slept over, so it was a good thing he was with me when I woke up.. ^__^)

Then he said he remembered reading in a newspaper that there was a prediction about a very strong Earthquake on July 25.

... then last night, we had an earthquake. Twice.

God, am I becoming a psychic or what?! Now, I can't sleep.. @___@ It's 6am already.. Maybe I'll wait for Mama to wake up first, then I'll go to sleep.. @__@
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