Bite Me

When Papa passed away and Mama was crying her heart inside out, I wanted to play the strong daughter so I said, "Ma, andito pa naman kami eh." to console her.

When my brother left for his apprenticeship on a shipping vessel hours before his birthday, Mama was left crying again like there's no tomorrow. I wanted to make it easier for her this time so I teased her about the tears which pissed her off and made her stop.

But now that's Arvin's about to leave for overseas work, still without any definite date or time when he would be away, just thinking about it makes me feel like a headless chicken.

There's only one thing I know, the world pressed the Pause button.Everything I've known, I've done, I've planned were put on hold so I could digest the news of him being away. Just the thought of him not by my side made me drop everything like a hot potato.

So bite me, Work. Maybe your sting would make me I understand why the only thing which remained constant for more than a decade should change.

What A Very Interesting Topic

"Me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me and ME!" she says.

OK, I get it. You love yourself and you don't want to acknowledge any word I say.

Can we move on to something more interesting now or should I just talk to our bird to get a more interesting conversation?

What a bummer first post for '12.

I think I understand why wives nag when their husbands go on drinking a binge with friends. It's not the drinking that upsets them, it's the fact that the husband can choose between wife and bed or friends and bottles, and the husband chooses the latter.

Gentlemen, do yourselves a favor and decline a night out just once. You'll be rewarded with a night of no drama, trust me.

20-20

Do your glances shy my way? Maybe

a peek,

a stolen stare,

an unsaid message sent through those warm chocolate

eyes, do they burn?

As they trace my mouth's curves and lines,

seeing closely if they're bent towards the sky.

Does your vision pause

for a lingering second,

for a fleeting while,

amidst the heavy smoke and bottled laughter,

to stare and wonder how

luck, can bring such fortune by your side?

Do your glances shy my way? Maybe.

For I want to know if

your eyes suffer,

the same clumsy sickness as mine.

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It's almost 8AM but the sky looks like it's only 6AM. Maybe it's the weather or maybe I've seen too much K/Jdramas recently that I wanted to try writing a poem again. It's been a while since I last tried writing one. The idea on'20-20' was actually from a long standing question I have regarding some cheesy stuff that you probably would rather not know and I would rather not tell. xD

What I Want To Do

... is watch anime.

I miss watching slice-of-life type of anime like Nodame Cantabile and Honey and Clover. All that has been coming out lately are more of the shounen type, which I hate. Ew. I've had enough of Bleach, Naruto and One Piece. The last shounen series that I've tried watching was Durara. It does deserve to be the Anime of 2010 by the website Metanorn but I dropped it after watching a couple of episodes. Ugh, I guess I'm getting too old for their type.

I've been on the very early morning shift (3:00AM) recently and I got some time to browse. I find myself browsing for Noda Megumi and Hagu. I really miss watching well built characters. T_T

Work-(Love)Life Balance is Happiness

Oh wow! It's been a while since my last post. I've never been good at expressing happiness down to words, that's why I've left this blog outdated. Teehee, gomen ne. :D

I think this happiness is brought by the fact that I'm loving my job at the moment and that HP is standing by its' promise to give work-life balance to its' employees. Or maybe I'm just darn lucky to get an account which has Saturdays and Sundays as rest days and a role that mostly deals with emails than calls. Whichever it is, I'm planning to make the most out of this luck. I'm thinking of taking this career on a different level by switching to SAP or UNIX by the end of the year together with my friend Vicky. Our mid-year assessment is currently rolling and I'm planning to mention this plan to our Manager once my turn comes. Mass Comm grad turned IT, not bad, eh?

Arvin and I also celebrated our 10th year last April. I kinda anticipated a marriage proposal but it didn't happen. Oh well, he said it's because I'm a party pooper. I asked him about our marriage plans a week before our anniversary and ended up having a teary discussion to why we still can't mess things up settle down. Hehe, forgive me, I'm really like this. I'm impatient when it comes to things I'm really excited about. BUAHAHAHAHA. There, I said it. I'm already thinking of getting married. Pffft. I blame you, Marichu and Nards for this!!! (Haha!)

You see, I went to their love nest and was able to observe how things are working out for the newlyweds. Suddenly I felt so warm imagining myself spending my lazy rest days with Arvin.

Comfy sofa.

Mushy DVDs.

Food he made.

Him.

So I thought, "Hey, that's nice."

And so one day, my so-called juicy imagination which has been tickling my heart for days, finally made its' way to my mouth and pushed me to ask him, "When are we going to get married?" over a KFC dinner. I wish I took a picture of Arvin's face, it was awesome. xD

Anyway, we know we're getting there someday but we just don't know when and how. I would openly admit now that this topic gets me depressed most of the time but whenever that happens, I always remember what Arvin told me on the night of our 10th year. After reminiscing the past, he said, "I know you're OK with a simple wedding but I want to give you a kind of wedding you deserve." Then he hugged me all night with pure wholesome loving that melted my heart. :)

So there! Forgive the mushiness of the last part! Hahaha.. :D

My, oh my~ :D

Of Past, Plans and Infinity

Hello 2011! Even though I'm kinda late in welcoming you to my blog, please do not take it against me and give me a hard time like what 2009 did. I didn't get along with 2009 very much but you, we've only been together for 15 days yet I feel like you're someone I can be good friends with this year. I think we can work things out pretty well and that's good to know, right?