"What we want is usually more than what we need.."

- Starbucks 2009 planner

I got my first plastic card March of 2005. I was so pleased that I took a picture of it together with my newly manicured nails. I've forgotten where the picture is and I lost the card recently due to stupidity but I'm still being haunted by the 5-digit electronic money I spent. So as much as I want to stay hidden inside my animated world, my now resting-in-peace cash back Citibank card is forcing it's way in to my realm and dragging me back into reality.

It's really really sad that temptation and stupidity got into my better judgment of myself. I've always known that I have a Becky Bloomwood in me, lurking, waiting and ready to pounce once given a chance and darn she did overtake the quiet and gentle essiehime (come on people, you know I'm quiet and gentle!). Yeah sure, I am capable of paying the dues but heck, I could've bought a laptop, a new monitor for my desktop, a PSP or even a new smart phone I've been drooling on for months if I've saved all the okane I've been paying those sharks in suits for the past years.

Stupid, stupid Essie!

I'm trying to smile my way out of this troublesome feat but I'm really having a hard time. Everytime I remember how much I owe those @#!$#, I want to raise hell and go to their office kicking and screaming. But hey, I've learned that everytime you point a finger on others, the rest of the fingers (or at least 3 of them) are pointing back at you. No, not you. Me. Yes, me. The unbelievably stupid Essie.




Mood:

"You-don't-want-to-mess-with-me" mood.

*forgive my incoherent tenses, I really need to brush up my writing on top of my need to improve on my baka-jap grammers. Ugh!

Yokatta ne!

DEKIMASHITA!!

Yey! Yey! Yey!

I can say I'm pretty pleased with the outcome..

Added more details:
Some grass
Japanese characters that reads:
Hotaru no Monogatari
(or Firefly's story, which I claim to be the translation of my blog's header)
Haha, which I'm hoping I got correctly.
... and of course, my four leaf clover.. ^0^
This is what the original header looks like:
Watch me Fall

Again, the original template was from here and the original header was from here

Also added Honey and Clover's first opening theme,
Dramatic in solo piano by Hayashi Yuuzo

Atashi wa tensai desu!


Hohohohohohohohoho!
^0^

*sniff sniff*

Something smells funny..

Errrr, I guess the Nodame in me kicked in again.

*grabs a towel and dashes out to take a bath*

Jaa! ;D

Mood:

Satisfied.. :)

Banzai!! \"\^0^/"/

Ureshii!

After days and days of frustration, my blog is now up and running again..^__^

The layout's from http://www.suckmylolly.com/ which offered great and yet free templates. I took the liberty of editing the header's picture (it originally looked like this) because I don't think the lady hanging on the tree is falling, rather, she's flying. (or maybe playing around or imagining she's a bird, whatever, haha.. xD) There isn't any intention of copyright infringement. I'm so paranoid about these kind of stuff these days because of what DeviantArt did to my wallpapers. Telling me they had to delete my wallpapers due to some copyright blah blah. Gah. Hate them, hmpf! O__o

Anyway, I'm still adding up my friends' links so hopefully I can restore everything by tomorrow (yey for rest days! ;D).


Mood:

Triumphant!

Hime mada nai.. Y__Y (baka jap strikes again..-_-;)

This post has been deleted.
I am being unfair and i don't like that.
Chances should be given again and again
... and again, without fail.
That's how relationship works, i believe
Loving is a competition
... whoever gives the most love is the winner.

Maybe I'll keep the tiara
... tucked somewhere beneath the martial suit.
I'm riding away,
.. to stop my jesters.

Mood:

Thoughtful..

THIS BLOG IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

This is me!!

Ugh, I'm at my wit's end here! I'm ready to dash out the room and take a crash course on Illustrator, CSS and HTML! Depending on these blogger templates drives me nuts, I'm telling ya, nuts!!

I lost all my links, my widgets, my headings are all in spanish, my posts got scrambled and my migraine's not helping at all!!


Tasukete kudasai!!



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See?! It won't even start a new paragraph!! Ugh!

Mood:

Exhausted..

On Twilight (dusk, たそがれ, tasogare)

I've been reading the Twilight Saga these past few days and I'm still stuck on the 3rd book, Eclipse. I can say it's really, hmm, what's the right term, catchy..? Yon has been recommending the series way back 24/ 7 training days but I never got the chance to purchase the book because it's priced as much as a Murakami book. I thought that it was not worth it and somehow, by reading the e-books I felt I was right.

Don't kill me if you love Twilight. Let me explain.

The book was written in the female protagonist's point of view and of course, it has it's pros and cons. Readers were given full blown details about what Bella sees, feels, and thinks on every situation which is good because people get to understand her every intention, get to feel all her pain, love and "kilig" thoughts about Edward (What's with her gushing over Edward over and over?!). Please Bella, spare me the overflowing details. We were taught way back in college that in writing, never underestimate our audience's intellect. I think the author broke this rule because in her novel, everything's VERY convenient. Argh, I really want to gush out the entire story here, spoilers and all, but I'll hold my horses for those who hate spoilers.. :p

But the credit still goes to Miss Meyer since I :heart: vampire stories. Kaname and Zero from Vampire Knight, Toya Kano from A Thousand Years of Snow, Lestat and Louis from Interview with the Vampire (of course that's Tom and Brad, respectively) and even Jonathan Cain from good 'ol Sweet Valley High! *OK, fangirling can stop now*

.. and also, she's got credit for making Arvin want to read her books! Haha. But for the meantime, the guy's contented with my spoiler stories. :p

For those who want to read the e-books, you can download here:
http://www.mediafire.com/hoshikuzu

Enjoy! ^0^/"/

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Ah, and before I forget, one of my favorite japanese word is "tasogare" which means "dusk" or "twilight".. Jeeez, I never thought it would be over-used, I even used it as a title of one of my previous post (in hiragana, like the title of this post)..-_-;


Mood:

Eh?!