Uyyy, excited~... ^__^

Nakushita yakusoku wa hoshi ni,
The promise I lost will rise to the stars,
Omoide wa tokenai..
my memories will not fade..

A recycled photo from our old Honey and Clover themed photo shoot.. :)

My moon face was definitely showing on the picture above but I am posting it because this was one of the lucky, super rare picture where Vhojie-daisensei caught my eyes somehow open. (They're always open but since the scenes were mostly taken with my head bowed down and since my eyes are really, really humongous, I look like a sleepwalker having seizures! Gah!) Gosh, if given a chance, I would like to re-shoot this theme but this time, without the extra bags on my cheeks.. :p


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And a layout to clear my thoughts..

The dots on the the two "i"s on essiehime,
emo overload on green background..:p

.. which has been fogged up lately. I miss photoshop.

らい (in hiragana)

Drafts for Murasaki..

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She told me that I remind her of herself when she was younger. I looked at Murasaki's smile (which at certain times, doesn't reach her eyes) and said..

Wait, wait.. Matte.

I couldn't really remember what I said as a response back then.
Hmmn, maybe I only uttered a brief "Talaga..?" like I usually do then went on with another topic, or I might've asked her to explain "Why?" so I can satisfy my curiosity or perhaps I just smiled.

Yeah, maybe that's it. I might've smiled because until now, I can remember how pleased I was.

How should I put it? I was pleased because Murasaki has a certain charm, one that I've never seen.

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I look and you and wonder, how can a fragile being bear so much pain?

When you're too tired, you can always let go. We'll be ready with a super glue to put the shattered pieces together.

On Children

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

Kahlil Gibran

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Omoide

I think most of the people in the office see me as a very bubbly, optimistic, all-smiling kawaii girl next door who, as the cliche goes, doesn't even know how to wash the dishes. (Something like that) I guess that's because I presented myself as an anime loving meatball who loves blurting out random Japanese words while holding out a V on my outstretched hand. I tend to jump up and down, bop from left to right and babble on senselessly whenever possible. 

But the truth is, I like silence. Comfortable, carefree, you-don't-have-to-talk-because-I'm-OK-with-this type of silence which I share with my closest friends. Old and new ones alike.

I am ranting because I miss the vivid stillness of the past.

And because I am anxious of what will happen on the not-so-distant future. *Raichi, chigau, chigau!*

The combination of Murakami and the cold is murderous, it's a happy hormone killer. How come I love it?

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*i'm sorry for this another incoherent post.

Mood:

*..very very thoughtful."

~chotto stop-u *bleh*

Chunk of updates.. :D

• Full Metal Alchemist's new anime series will be out on April '09..
link from animenewsnetwork
-- can't wait to see what tricks hand-clapping Edward Elric has on his sleeves, er--, metal arm again.. ^_^ I definitely missed his little musings. *I can imagine Edward wringing my neck for calling his ranting little, haha.*

Yatta!

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• I can finally pull deviantart up at home! Yey! ^__^
~essie-hime's deviantart page
-- most of the wallpapers in my gallery are scans from animes I love, which I edited. ^_^
-- a re-post of my journal in DA:
Yey!! I can pull DA up again at home! Ureshii!

Jeeez, after months and months of inactivity, I can finally log in, read journals and download stuff again from DA! Gah! It's been a while!

Until now, I'm still puzzled why I couldn't pull this site up at home before. I could only see a white BG and links lined up on the left, and when I click on them nothing happens. Tried ALL the technical gibberish I can but.. Anyhoo, it's up now, so I can only hope that it won't happen again.


Muahahahaha!

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• I met up with the {Chingyorakugan Sisters} yesterday to watch Desperadas 2. {Kaoru} said Vhojie's gift for her upcoming birthday would be a photoshoot, of us!

-- I'm really, really excited about this one. I'd love to have another anime themed photoshoot with {Kaoru} but since {marnellie} and {jennypots} are not much of an anime fan, we decided to think of other photoshoot concept. *Uhm, but could we, purdy, purdy please, at least cosplay one anime? Haha.* A Goddess themed concept would be nice, a gothic inspired set-up would be cool too. But as I've said to {Kaoru}, a LOT of people are into goth and emo stuff right now, so as much as I really would want to go with that I idea, I'd rather not. Hmmn, but hey, I think we could pull it off. We just need to think out of the box.. ^__^v

Ureshii! Ureshii!

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• I updated my shelfari account. Since I saw Paula's blog about her shelfari "I plan to read.." books, I thought I should add her as a friend there as well as create update my "to read" and "need to finish" list. Haha. I already have some of the books below and their pages are only waiting to be opened. Booklogs, as Lio-kun call it.. :) *this is also called wishlist*

Widget is not loading, so here's my link instead.. :D

Hmmn, which one should I read first?

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So there. Jaa! :p

Mood:

"Ohhh.. Sugoi ne!"

Otsukaresama deshita, たそがれ!

Twilight's pull on me is as forceful as the moon's power over the tides, so I think I'm beginning to like the series. I know I'm still not a fan of the book because I haven't re-read them (which I usually do on literature I love). Instead, I am beginning to like all the characters aside from Bella and how the people around me react when they hear "Edward Cullen". How should I put it? Twilight's fame affects me like how Christmas turns everybody into a Santa Claus on holiday seasons, regardless of race, religion and all that merry stuff. Ho ho ho ho. Ah, forgive me, I don't know the exact word for it. It's also like how Naruto invites me to watch him chase after Saucegay Sasuke while shouting "I'll never let you go!". Am I making any sense? I guess not. But there, bottom line is I still don't like reading Miss Meyer's writing but I got hooked on the story and I am joining the bandwagon. Ha ha ha ha.

For somebody like me who loves to read squishy, mushy, sugar-coated, bishie-filled mangas, I know this is inevitable. I guess the last straw was finally blown into neverland when Flippie told me that there's an anime version of Twilight and this is how they look like:

I was screaming my lungs out that I had to put my customer on hold. I was as red as the apple on Edward's hand. They have NEVER seen and will never see me react to anybody like that, only on paper bishies. :p

So anyway, I was so excited on the idea that there's another vampire anime coming out (aside from those vampire animes that are already on my to watch list) that we had to summon a ninja so we can watch it in the office while taking calls on break. Poonam, if there's any chance you're reading this, pretend that you did not read it, OK? :D So there, Flippy showed me the trailer of the anime and was so disappointed. Click the link and see why..


Anyway, that clip still gave me a good laugh and brought on some guessing challenge while taking calls on break. Especially on the part where Morita played Jacob and Hagu played Renesmee. I miss those two! Then, I always remember Flippie's face while he was "imitating" Edward's snarl. He was so absorbed with hissing like Voldemort on a demented day that his nose was all wrinkled and his faux fangs were bared, he didn't even notice I was laughing at him already! You're giving me a tummy ache Flippie..Peace desu! ^__^v


Mood:

"Otsukaresama deshita, Twilight!" ;)

Hmmmn..?

If the opposite of like is dislike, then is hate the opposite of love?

Nope.

It's uncaring. Hating somebody is more acceptable because there's still a reason for that person to exist in your life, as a person you hate. But when you don't give a d*mn about somebody's feelings and when you choose to ignore somebody's existence and you simply don't care, that's the time you know that it's no longer love.

-- As said by Makoto's Mom, W-Juliet II (manga)
** this is what she said, from what I understood, translated into my words.. :p


Mood:

"I'm not so sure.."

boredom = aching eyes + bulging tummy

I found something interesting (somehow).

Yozakura Quartet

I'm still too lazy to post anything worth while here so I'm posting an update of what I'm watching instead.

Tsk, tsk, tsk. Not a good start for '09.

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Edit:

Sheer boredom.
Not even anime(s) and manga(s) can make me snap out of it.



I am, again, slowly ascending the glass stairs.
Upon looking back, I can only see two things

Them
... and me.

Mood:

"I am... *sigh*"